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His palm was her country

  • 02 September 2014

Mute Morning

i.m. Carol Hogan   I woke in a strange dream of a priest who pitied the child born to the mother no longer a nun. From the pew behind I was the I that spoke up to power.   When I woke, the light was soft, grey with a promise of rain. But on the ear the camellia—with its early winter splashes of deep pink—squawked the squawk   of a wattlebird, answered from the next yard. I wrote you a card, knowing I would not see you again in this, the only transience we have. Dressed and breakfasted, I walked   for forty minutes to the beach—and back— where the sea and sky bled into each other a wash of blue and grey, a tone I recalled from the stained glass florets of a Mary   window. I posted the card on the way, not knowing you had already died.   Black and white   Black smudges beneath the eyes of the white dog fall, like tear-wet mascara. His walker’s eyes are kohled. She is an Egyptian deity with the look of Greater Frankston. I, too, have it—the appearance that invites offers of Dead Sea masks in the middle aisle of the Bayside Shopping Centre. Last week   she picked handfuls of moult from his belly. Clumps of white fur composed a still life on the path with possum scats and leaf-fall, as I hurried for the city train. Magpies in their livery were sorting their song sheets for the morning chorus. Overhead, beak dipping into the insulator, a mynah breakfasted.   The look   He saw the god in the bent-winged chick that he carried and fed   with fruit and grain. The cage he had not built for her   hung from the sky, was without a door. Open   his palm was her country. She was quiet there. Her feathered skin   and pulsing breast, taken together, said   bird. Though flightless, she was made for flight. Her bright beads   met his eyes with a knowledge air gives to wings.   To the bookmaker god   With your ticket and stub you make a book of my heart. When my hand reads the ridges   on the pacer’s spine, the bindings whisper in tongues. The roan of my favourite season whickers like a fold   in a leaf. With the rustle of silk, the winter sun will canter the aisles, burnish the wood.   Later, after the spring carnival, I’ll re-shelve the rhetoric of love, write for nothing else.   I’ll check the Dewey for harness and bit, catalogue turf with green, and find your Cup in the stacks.

Anne Elvey is author of Kin (Five Islands, 2014) and three poetry chapbooks. She is managing editor of Plumwood Mountain: An Australian Journal of Ecopoetry and Ecopoetics and holds honorary appointments at Monash University and University of Divinity,